My Bad Self by Jessica Huntley

My Bad Self by Jessica Huntley

Author:Jessica Huntley [Huntley, Jessica]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Psychological thrillers with strong women, Psychological thrillers with mental health, Thriller novellas, Short thriller books, Short psychological thrillers
Published: 2023-12-06T16:00:00+00:00


Chapter One

My name is Josslyn and I’m a psychopath.

Actually, that’s not technically correct.

I have psychopathic tendencies (don’t we all a little bit?) and a personality disorder.

No, wait. That’s not right either. It’s difficult to explain. Let me start over.

My name is Alicia and I am a psychopath.

It’s me again. I sometimes get us mixed up. It’s impossible to describe exactly what or who Alicia is because I don’t know the answer myself.

I'm Josslyn Reynolds, a twenty-eight-year-old slightly crazy lady who lives alone and has no friends. Alicia is ... well, she’s ... the psychopathic voice in my head. Wait, before you judge me as a lunatic, let me attempt to explain. She hasn’t always been there (I'll get to that later), but she’s been in my head a long time, so long in fact that I can’t imagine her not being there.

I know everyone has an inner monologue running through their minds. Everyone has thoughts they keep inside that only they know about and would never say aloud, but Alicia isn’t merely my own thoughts and feelings: she’s something else, something ... different.

If you met me on the street, you’d never give me a second look. I’m average height, average build, have dull brown hair just below shoulder length, brown eyes and am a casual dresser. Boring, right? There’s nothing interesting about me whatsoever (except for Alicia), but no one knows about her, so from the outside, I’m perfectly normal, but on the inside ... oh boy, I'm fucked up. I’ve somehow managed to keep her a secret the entire time she’s been present within me. It feels like I have a secret superpower. It’s what makes me special ... to me. I’m not special to anyone. I don’t have anyone in my life that I care about (minus my parents and Oscar, which I’ll explain soon). Most of the time I have to pretend to be normal and happy. I mean, I am happy (sort of). I’m not depressed, but I’m not what you would call a sociable, happy person.

Let me get one thing clear: I don’t like people. That’s not Alicia talking, that’s me. I guess you could say that I tend to push people away just by being me, which makes me feel very lonely. Yes, I know, I’m a walking contradiction. I don’t like people, yet I feel lonely. Human beings need companionship, or they end up going crazy, like me, although technically I'm not crazy, I just happen to have a voice in my head.

Loneliness is a funny thing, isn’t it? Even the most popular, outgoing person can feel lonely, even if they are surrounded by friends and family. It’s one of those things you often hear about, but very rarely talk about. No one ever stops and truly thinks about it because, the truth is, we're all lonely in our own way. We all have those moments where we realise that, sometimes, loneliness is our only true friend. It’s always there, whether we want it to be or not.



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